Tuesday, January 31, 2023

Premonition

We dream of those we want to see

Of places where we want to be
What is this train we are regularly late for
This maths exam we are never ready for
Sometimes the faces are of strangers
Are they one or made from many
Who passed us on our way day to day
But to whom we had little to say
If dreams are often life-like
What of those real-life occurrences
That can only be called dream-like
That night when we were about to sleep
I clearly heard my brother call my name
The voice came from the backdoor
What was he doing there at this hour
When he was supposed to be at home
Five hundred miles west from here
No one was seen when we went to look
The telegram soon followed of his death
After being falsely accused of theft by father
I still think he came to bid farewell to his sister
Even if no one knows if we live thereafter.
















Friday, January 27, 2023

The last one

In the class the blackboard

Turns silent when wiped clean
The children pretend to be quiet
With their eyes talking to one another
The teacher battles to shepherd minds
That wander over imaginary pastures
To be in the moment is hardly learnt
Till the last moments are upon us
Dying is nothing new as the poet said
Do we remember the deaths before death?
The time when we lost what we thought we had?
The child we could not be for long?
The native city we had to walk away from
Though the past came running after us crying?
As life moves from one death to another
The last one is like the ones that came before.







Tuesday, January 17, 2023

Cacophony

 The drunkard sleeping under

The tree he thinks he owns
Because he sleeps there
Protests the birdsong
That wakes him early
I have heard him quarrel
Before with his past
In a particular order
The wife he left because
She wanted money all the time
The friend who owes him 
And refuses to pay back
The enemy who thrashed him
When he was unprepared
And has it coming soon;
This is something new
Complaining of the clamour
From the newborn crow chicks
Impatient for their first feeding;
"Can't you let a poor man sleep
When he has to drink to do that
Do you know what the prices are
Am I stealing this stuff off the street
Like you do for building your nest
If you keep up this racket every morning
I am going to come for you with a gun."
I too talk to the crows when alone
Like a child confiding to his toys.
The tippler pours himself a hangover fix
Targets the original sinner again
And finally goes back like Caliban to his dream. 







Monday, January 9, 2023

First loss

This crow is flying about

With its own feather in its beak
Much like me holding on to my 
First milk tooth when it fell
And trying to put it back fearing
The ridicule of peers
I had seen being ridiculed;
It was a rite of passage
To cope with the first loss
To get it soon buried
In the backyard
Helped by mother
With a generous sprinkling of milk;
Mother has now become a framed photo
Quietly receiving her monthly oblations
So has father who consoled me
With the fact that teeth for grown-ups
Replace the ones we lose;
Every memory is a memory of loss
Of what we lost and what we have not.



Wednesday, January 4, 2023

Silence

Look at the silence

Of the sky
When it darkens
Before rain
Listen to night fall
Over the city
Fighting darkness
With its lights
How can we go home
If our work is not done
...

The parrot's feather,
I picked up on the terrace 
During my evening walk,
Was green and white with
Maybe a touch of blue
From affinity for the sky,
I kept it for a while in my hand
Wishing I could fly into the night
And be remembered as someone
Who vanished as he wished.
...

Silence is taught
In corporate ashrams
If it can be paid for
Sometimes with life
Someone's silence 
Can be bought
If cost is naught
What happened
To the silence
We fought in school
That we soon learnt to
Turn off and on
It is a deafening silence
When the falsehood is brazen
When the godman speaks
Truth falls silent.